It’s been A Year Without Her and it was a difficult year, to say the least. My Mom passed away one year ago today. Yes, 4 days before Christmas and right on my parents 64 1/2 year wedding anniversary. Because Christmas was so close, it was just my Dad, John and I with her when she left this earth. Her suffering from brain cancer and eventual death were very painful and unimaginable. But, God was with us and we are so blessed to have hope in Him, and the Holy Spirit who brought us peace through it all.
A long-time friend of our family, Sandy sent this image to me right after my Mom died, and it summed up exactly how we all felt. John read it at the opening of my Mom’s celebration of life.
This picture of her laughing is the perfect image of my Mom, it was taken after she was trying to make our granddaughter, Laila laugh. And, Laila did laugh and giggle at her, it was so cute. She loved life and she taught us all to have fun and laugh often.
Allow me to tell you what my Mom was. She was love, laughter, joyful, and so much fun to be around. Everyone that knew her, loved her so much.
My Mom also had an unbelievable way of seeing the best in people, it was a gift of hers. And, she had faith in God until her last breath. She knew how to forgive and forget and she never lost her faith, even when my parents were young and lost their second child at 5 months old. It was a tragedy that took my Mom to a whole new level of faith in God. And, God blessed my parents with 4 more children after our little sister, Shelly passed away.
She was a prayer warrior. I am blessed to have parents that prayed for me and my siblings daily. There were times that John and I lived with them and they lived with us, and we would hear them call out each and every one of our names in prayer.
If you have children I encourage you to pray for them daily. Whether or not they are struggling in their faith, pray for them. God hears your prayers and wants the very best for them.
My parents were not perfect, but they tried their best to raise us in the ways of the Lord. We went to church, they were good examples to us and now all their children, most of their grandchildren and great-grandchildren love and serve the Lord today. The ones that are not serving Him currently, I’m sure will come back to the truth soon. Because once you know the truth, it is always with you.
To be honest, the first few months after my Mom passed away were very difficult for John and me. We had questions about God like; How could a loving God allow this to happen to such an awesome woman of God? Why did she have to suffer like she did? Along with many other questions.
Our faith was shaken for a time, it was difficult to worship Him at first. But, we pushed through the pain, forced ourselves to seek His face and God was there for us through our dry and hurting season. If you don’t know where to start, open your bible, listen to Christian music and talk to Him.
You may have heard the expression, “It’s difficult to drive forward if you’re looking in the rear view mirror.” Well, the same goes with letting go and moving forward in your relationship with the Lord. Ask Him to help you let go of your past hurts, and disappoints and He will. Then you will be able to move forward and live a much happier life.
There are times in our lives when our hope seems to fade and slip away, but I promise, there is hope for the broken-hearted. God cares, God loves you and God wants you to be whole again. If you’re struggling with the hard question, “WHY?” it’s ok. He can take your questions and disappointments and help you through them.
Unfortunately, we may not know the “WHY” of things until we get to heaven. Which at that point, in the light of His glory, we really won’t care about our temporary suffering here on earth.
Taken from my devotional Grief Bites: A New Approach to Growing Through Grief
“GROW through your grief…wrestle with God (in a respectful way with the ultimate goal of submitting to His heart)…ask Him to carry you through the pain…courageously ask Him to make something good come from your heartache…plead with Him to teach you DYNAMIC spiritual and life lessons throughout your grief.
To those who wrestle with God, there is a great reward: a deeper, more intimate relationship with Him and the crown of life that He has promised to those who love Him. Get alone with God today, pour out your heart, and ask the tough questions…beg Him to meet you right where you are. Tell Him where you truly are at in your grief journey, share with Him ALL of your thoughts and feelings…right or wrong. He KNOWS what you are thinking and feeling, you are not going to shock Him.
You may or may not receive answers here on earth but you will find something greater: God’s heart.
Going to God with your heartache develops an intensely intimate friendship with God. I encourage you to begin or to beautifully continue that friendship today.
It is amazing to have Someone there 24/7 to help balance out a broken heart. He desires to help you make it through your grief. He wants you to have the best life possible, a life brimming with blessings and joy. Yes, even in spite of grief, life challenges, and trials.
Read James chapter 1 and see what God has to share with your heart.
Praying right now for God to minister in a new amazing way to all who are going through grief!”
This picture hangs in my parents home and even though God did not heal my Mom here on earth, I still believe God heals. We may not understand why He doesn’t heal at times, but we still believe.
Sometimes in life you feel like your heart is shattered, and in a way, it has been when you lose a loved one like a parent, sibling, a child, family member, or a very close friend. But, God can heal a broken heart and put the pieces of your life back together again.
Christmas isn’t always Merry, and that’s how I felt last year. If a loss has made you sad or depressed, I believe it’s possible for you to be happy again. I told my Dad a few months ago, “We have to find our joy again Dad because the joy of the Lord is our strength.” Little by little, we’re both doing better and with the Lord’s help, you can have joy through your struggles and disappointments too.
I love and appreciate each and every one of our Sweet Readers. And, I pray for you often. I’ve shared this video before, but for those who may not have seen it, I hope you enjoy it and it brings you peace through the holiday season.
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